Hello again! So this fashion, beauty, and lifestyle blog has been lifestyle lately and continues to be with this post... hang with me though because fashion and beauty is coming! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas with loved ones celebrating the true meaning. Here's a little bit of a heart flood for the night.
I get a lot of questions regarding whether or not I'll go back to Troy for school. Well, the truth is I pray that I can have another opportunity to go back. I have to leave this is God's hands for now and wait for what He ultimately wants for my life. I do want to leave Franklin, but not because I hate Franklin. When I tell people I want to move away, it's because I want to better myself and my future along with experiencing new people and places. I truly believe we were made to explore and experience. I had someone tell me recently, "You won't leave." after I told them that I eventually wanted to move away. I love this person dearly, but when people say that, it pushes me further into the realm of wanting to leave and lights a fire that grows my desire to go and start over in a whole new place. It hurts when people say those things to me because (let's get something straight) coming home from Troy was NOT what I wanted to do. It was what I needed to do and what I had to do at the time. The feelings I get when I hear those things pretty much just suck... I feel like they are saying: "Oh, I don't have faith in you to leave again." or, "What makes you think you can leave now if you couldn't do it last time?" Yes I tried to leave already and it didn't work out, but I trust the Lord that He will give me the blessings and strength to do it again, wherever it may be that I go. I believe everyone should at least try to leave, it really puts things into a new perspective. I did succeed in going away for a little bit of time and for that I am proud of myself.
much love
xx, Blaine